" Life is not about finding yourself...it's about creating yourself."
She "gets" me. Thanks Tracy.
Do you ever feel like "if I don't make something today I'm going to explode"
That's how working on a craft project, any project works for me.
One time I took care of a patient who was admitted for a (thankfully) failed suicide attempt. Drug overdose. Her anxiety level was high and it didn't help that we were monitoring her closely. one on one. She was a "cutter". Her arms and legs scarred from years of cutting herself. During the night I found her trying to cut herself. She explained to me that she felt like a balloon about to explode and when she cuts herself it relieves some of the pressure. Interesting.
I thought about this and later brought her a piece of paper, staying with her I asked her if she wanted to tear the paper. I watched her slowly tear the paper into strips. As she tore strips I watched her calm down a bit. I stayed with her until the paper was shredded. Together we tore paper into long narrow strips. Then she wept and thanked me. I then collected every piece of paper and took it away. She slept for several hours.
Thank God I have never been inflicted with uncontrollable impulses, clinical depression or any other psych issues like this young lady. But I think of her sometimes as I am cutting paper in my craft room. sometimes when I have been working on some type of artsy fartsy masterpiece (or not) and I feel my spirit lighten, I get caught up in the power to create, and I feel released from the drudgery of day in day out junk. Interesting.